When I tell you I love you
It will be the first time you hear me
saying that
It will be late
and I will probably not even be there
but instead
in the car on my way home
from a place I don't even
wanted to be at
And of course you will smile
because it will sound like
I mean it
Because you believe me
Because you have never
heard me saying
anything like that before
like poetry
dancing out from my mouth
into your ears
and says "here
take everything I have ever
touched
just so that I can be
closer to you"
My breath
waiting to be folded into
a lovenote passed
in between the nape of your neck
and my front teeth
I will remember the time you told me
you feel safe in my arms
and the time I realized that
you are falling deeper and deeper
in love with me
When I tell you I love you
you will hear music
the voice of your past lovers
dancing up through your throat
your stomach
and after hours
still waiting on the last call
and that's when you know
that when I say I love you
I am meaning that I am ready
to be in consistence with you now
And I will tell you that I love you
right after I make you wait
for two hours
for me to come home
from a place I don't even want to be at
Patience were something you were working on
but no not for me
And I will ask you to tell me that
you love me back
but I am in the car
and you will see the words
falling down in your lap
like a spilled glass of red wine
You will remember the day your
heart got lost in the wind
because that was a message that
did not know how or who
to carry
And one by one
the lovers had fallen as silently as the birds do
So you used to speak until you asked the question
that broke them into ghosts
that bled you into a corner
of so many questions
of your own
But their tounges
do not know simple
the things you should be hearing
the things that would make you
live in a time of happiness
yet dying lovers
But when I tell you I love you
only to become sighted like a tiny piece of tissuepaper
not wanting you to decrease me into the truth
Do not crack your face into the fullest crescent moon
at the bottom of a black sky
I wont mean a single word of it
I am just a girl
I am just another silly girl